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Hello All. It's been two long and very eventful years since I last made an appearance here and am sure a lot of you must be wondering if I am still alive. Yes I am! Alive and kicking! Hopefully I will show up here more often now. At least that's the plan.

So what has kept me busy. Life has been a roller coaster where so much has happened that I don't know where to begin. Certain things can be shared but a lot of stuff is just too personal for me to even talk about to most people. I've had some really happy times and some really horrible moments, days and months. But that's life.

A lot of my regular readers sent me emails inquiring about my well being and I did not respond. I'd like to say I am sorry and that I was really touched by your concern. Please forgive me.

More later. As soon as I get a chance to get my thoughts together. Please keep visiting because I am definitely back! :)

Where do I go from here.....

At times in life, everything is up in the air. You know not what you want nor where you're going. Certainties disappear, it's just a long alien road ahead. 

For all the readers, the few that do read this blog regularly, apologies since I don't seem to have happy thoughts to share these days. That's not to say that I am unhappy....not at all. It's just that this particular phase of life seems to full of confusion with hardly any solution in sight. 

Life generally is full of ups n downs with no state of mind staying for long. They just come and go. Unfortunately, all the up times get lost in having fun and enjoying life and the only times we brood is when the going gets tough.

That brings me back to my state of mind right now which is most definitely down. Oops you guys can't help but notice that. I seem to be in a state of limbo right now which, let me tell you, is not a good place to be. Nothing makes any kind of sense coz I just don't know what's going on. There are multiple choices to make, various directions to travel and all I can do is stand still since I don't know where to go. 

Now generally I don't have a problem standing still till the road ahead becomes clearer but still at times one wonders, restless and upset, why it's taking so long to figure it out. Every path has so many positive and negative aspects. No path is clear.....how do I wade through the mire of negativity and walk.

I know it won't last, the path will open, taking me exactly where I'm supposed to go but that's no consolation right now. Coz the question that's driving me crazy right now is......where do i go from here.....???

Unsettled

Unsettled.....when the mind is blank but still so full. Its not a great state of mind to be in. You know something is wrong but can't put a finger to it and carry on listlessly, mindless and unfocused.

I am not really unfamiliar with this feeling. Happens often. I don't know what causes it. Could be any one of the things which clutter my mind most days. But none that I can point to and say.....this is it!

Nothing holds my attention, no conversation, no activity.....absolutely nothing that I can focus on. Just this feeling of restlessness. I wander around, trying to figure it out but know it's pointless. All I can do is wait for it to pass coz as they say......tomorrow is another day :)

Yes We Can

India is buzzing right now. All thanks to Anna Hazare who's caught the imagination of the people of India, along with the changes he wants to make, to make India a better place.

Anna Hazare is a social activist who today, is walking the Gandhian path, to try and bring about a much needed change in our corrupt political system. He's fasting till death, if need be, to bring a change in a proposed bill which just might end corruption in India forever.

Now I am not someone who understands the fine print of all this political or social jargon. But I do understand that something big is unfolding here. People are up and ready to support his cause and seem to be speaking in the same voice for a change. They all want to see the change that he is talking about.

We Indians normally have a chalta hai attitude when it comes to moving our butt. We're mostly talk, with very little action, especially when it comes down to brass tacks. But for now people seem to be really tuned in to all that he is saying, wanting a change and ready to do whatever it takes to get it.

He's making the headlines, trending on all social networking sites, is the most important piece of news. He's got the whole country talking about it.....for now!

Being a skeptic though I wonder if we Indians can sustain this crusade. In just over 36 hours the IPL will start. Will we still be concerned? Or will this be a forgotten story? Only time will tell if indeed we have what it takes to say......Yes We Can!

Is Delhi Safe For Women?

Is Delhi safe for women is a question doing the rounds these day. News channels, newspapers, social networking sites, drawing room conversations. It's all over.

I am from Delhi, I am a woman and I think Delhi is as safe for women as any other place in India or around the world. Is there any one place in the world where you can say a woman is safe? I think not!

Now please don't think that I am saying it's safe.....that's not the point of this post. I'm just wanting to tell you how, being a woman, I decide what risks I take and what I don't in order to live my life.

For a woman, in India, there is no place 100% safe. There are loads of statistics of incest, rape in marriage, dowry deaths, harassment at work.....I could go on but you've got the picture. It all depends on what a man around you is thinking or feeling.

Being a woman, I'v had to take a conscious decision about what I do or not do in order to make myself feel safe. Yes I drive around late at night, yes I wear clothes which might be termed as "provocative", yes I party, and I do all that NOT because I think I'm safe.....I do it because I do not want to live my life in a restricted way.

Sure I get nervous, sure I feel like slapping a guy who looks at me the wrong way but what is the option? Cover myself, stay home, live a life which is "safe" and boring. I think not. Instead I put my faith in God, keep my eyes and ears open, be very very alert and try to live my life to the fullest. Because it's not about Delhi or Mumbai or Bangalore......it can happen anywhere because men in our country think brute force is the one and only weapon they have to dominate women and prove they're superior.

Disclaimer : My aim is not to offend any man who reads this post. I have a ton of really wonderful friends who are men, who are perfect gentlemen, who reinforce my faith in men and give me the courage to live life on my own terms :)